they "heart" Chaim Witz

BabyF and BabyB were seated in front of the television Saturday afternoon after their midday feeding. I was about to put on one of their Baby Einstein dvd's (yes, I allow my babies to watch television) when I noticed that Gene Simmons (the infamous KISS rocker with the insanely long tongue) was being interviewed on some show. I watched for a moment, with tv remote still in my hand and pointed at the tv. I noticed that the girls were paying very close attention and were strangely calm. So I let them watch. They watched the entire interview and only started to complain as soon as the interview was over.

My daughters love Gene Simmons. I think I'm in for a world of trouble when they get older.

Anna - ology

(stolen from Miranda)


FOODOLOGY

What is your salad dressing of choice? Balsamic

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Casa Tapas

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Tapas

What are your pizza toppings of choice? Vegetarian + Anchovies

What do you like to put on your toast? I no longer eat toast


TECHNOLOGY

How many televisions are in your house? Three, but if it were up to me we would only have one.

What color cell phone do you have? White and silver with some orange accents

Do you have an Ipod? No, but I have an MP3 player


BIOLOGY

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Two babies, a fetus (I hate calling it that), two cysts, four wisdom teeth

What is the last heavy item you lifted? My babies

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? No


BULLCRAPOLOGY

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? No, I don't think so.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? I love my name.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Maybe - depends on my state of mind at the time.


DUMBOLOGY

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Just one pair.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Just under a year ago. I was pulled over for wearing my seatbelt incorrectly (tucked beneath my arm because it was bothering me - I was VERY pregnant at the time)

Last person you talked to? BabyF, but she's only seven months old so it was a one-way conversation.

Last person you hugged? BabyF.


FAVORITOLOGY

Season? Fall

Holiday? Christmas, but I wish I could get away from the commercialism of it.

Day of the week? Hmmm, while on maternity leave every day seems the same. When I was working my favourite day was Thursday.

Month? December


CURRENTOLOGY

Missing someone? Oh god, yes! Like you wouldn't believe!

Mood? Worried

What are you listening to? The tv in the other room serving as background noise to keep BabyB asleep.

Watching? The computer screen

Worrying about? Chris, Jim, making the right choices at the right times


RANDOMOLOGY

First place you went this morning? I haven't left the house. I went to the bathroom first.

What's the last movie you saw? I re-watched The Secretary two days ago

Do you smile often? Yes, most of the time

Sleeping Alone Tonight? No


OTHER-OLOGY

Do you always answer your phone? If I'm not busy or if it's someone I feel like speaking with at that moment.

Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? It had better be a wrong number or an emergency. Otherwise it's Joe (an ex-boyfriend) and he's drunk and missing me.

If you could change your eye color what would it be? Any colour works for me.

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Don't have a Sonic here.

Do you own a digital camera? Yes

Have you ever had a pet fish? No

Favorite Christmas song(s) - Too many to list. I like most Christmas songs.

What's on your wish list for your birthday? A really intense scene involving delicious pain, lots of torturous orgasm denial, and some worship (me doing the worshipping)

Can you do push ups? Yes, but very few

Can you do a chin up? I doubt it

Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Both!

Do you have any saved texts? Yes, a few

Ever been in a car wreck? No, just some minor accidents

Do you have an accent? I don't think so, but some say I do

What is the last song to make you cry? I don't remember

Plans tonight? No plans

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? Once.

Name 3 things you bought yesterday. Baby formula, groceries, and a Ritter Sport chocolate bar

Have you ever been given roses? Yes

Current worry? Didn't we already cover this? Chris, Jim, and making the right choices at the right times.

Current hate right now? No hate at the moment

Met someone who changed your life? Yes

How will you bring in the New Year? I don't know yet

What song represents you? U2's Stuck In A Moment comes to mind right now

Name three people who might complete this? Can't think of one

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? No... well, maybe.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? Yes

Do you have any tattoos/piercings? Single hole in each earlobe

Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now? I think so

Does anyone love you? I think so

Would you be a pirate? No, but I might be a wench

What songs do you sing in the shower? It varies from day to day

Ever had someone sing to you? Yes

When did you last cry? Yesterday

Do you like to cuddle? Yes

Have you held hands with anyone today? No

Who was the last person you took a picture of? BabyF and BabyB

What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? Some Disco and whatever my older brothers were listening to at the time

Do you believe in staying close with your ex's/prospects? Yes. So much so that a friend once told me, "you have too much cock around you".

Are most of the friends in your life new or old? A balanced mix of both

Do you like pulpy orange juice? Yes

What is something your friends make fun of you for? My clumsiness and my over-friendliness with strangers.

Month Seven - May 21, 2009

Dear BabyF and BabyB,

You turned seven months today. Having passed the six-month mark makes me so much more aware of how close you are to being a year old already. I know I've said this before, but I'll say it again... time is passing by so very quickly. I often don't realize it on a day-to-day basis, but it really hits me when some strangers asks me your age and I reply "seven months".

There was no letter written at six months and I apologize for that. Six months seems to be such a milestone and I feel horribly for skipping that month because I was drowning in my own struggles. I'll try to do a brief recap here and I hope you'll forgive me for not providing more details.

Month six included your first fever/cold. You both got sick at the same time, thanks to your father bringing home some horrible cold/flu from work. The entire world had been talking about the swine flu (which claimed lives), but, thankfully, that isn't what you had. You both had fever, a cough, and were vomiting for about a day and a half. You had also started teething at this time and the combination of teething and fever gave you both the worst diaper rash to date. Corn starch is our friend. Temperament-wise, BabyB was especially clingy through all this, but you both maintained your good humour and smiled and played whenever anyone attempted to entertain you. So, thanks to your good-natured ways, we managed to get through your first cold/flu together.

Also in month six, you both started eating "solids". Quite honestly there's nothing solid about mush, but everyone seems to call it "solids" so we'll stick with that label. BabyF started three weeks earlier than BabyB because we're extra cautious with BabyB's kidney condition and we didn't want to overload it with minerals it may not be able to handle. BabyF was a pro at gobbling up cereal mush almost from the very get-go. BabyB took a little longer to figure things out, but once that happened BabyB mastered it.

At your six-month check-up, your pediatrician told us you were both the size of a nine-month old baby. So you're both growing very well and developing nicely. You both learned how to roll from your back onto your sides and you both do very well during tummy-time. The giggles have come out more often too and there are always smiles to be seen. You also seem to enjoy going out for long walks in your stroller (which we do every day that isn't too cold or windy or raining) and you both end up taking a nap while mommy gets some exercise... a win-win situation!

Now onto month seven!


This past month has been filled with so many joys and so many challenges. Let's see if I can do this in point form before one of you wails for my attention.

- you've had lots of different mush food: rice cereal, barley cereal, oatmeal cereal, butternut squash, carrot, zucchini, sweet potato, green beans (BabyB isn't too fond of this so I often mix it with the sweet potato), peas, apple, and pear. The next month will include meat and legumes. I've been making the fruits and vegetables myself and it's a lengthy process - wash, peel, steam/boil/bake, let cool, and mush (sometimes blender first and then food mill... other times just food mill).

- BabyB, you've learned to roll from your back to your front. BabyF, you still only make it onto your side
- BabyB, you've very recently taken to sleeping on your side some nights
- you both have started to sit up and can manage to stay upright unassisted for a few seconds at a time
- you both enjoy watching your Baby Einstein dvd's
- BabyB, you absolutely LOVE watching Sid the Science Kid on PBS
- BabyB, you love being tossed around and being very physical. BabyF, you prefer much less physical play
- BabyB, you like to be SuperGirl when I hold you up in the air with your body horizontal. You always put your arms straight out by your sides and behind you like you're ready to take off. This is what earned you the name SuperGirl
- BabyF, you love to have your belly and thighs tickled and you giggle almost uncontrollably
- you both look at each other and laugh sometimes - it's the most adorable thing in the world and melts my heart every time.
- BabyF, you have a habit of farting whenever you cough or sneeze. It's cute and quite funny for now, but I hope that goes away by the time you're a teenager... for your sake.
- BabyB, sometimes when people talk to you, you smile and tuck in your chin and turn away from them like you're shy
BabyF, if I allowed it you would spend hours just staring at your fingers and "counting".

There's so much going on and I'm sure I'm forgetting some things. It's just such a joy to see more and more of your personalities shining through. And we have so much fun playing together. I just wish there were more hours in the day so that I could spend more time with you... and so I can get more sleep to restore some energy to spend more time playing with you.


All my love,
Mamma
xoxoxoxo

I suck at this

I know I'm not supposed to think this stuff and I'm certainly not supposed to admit to it, but it's the truth. I'm overwhelmed and feel like I'm in over my head. There have been days when I've thought (and even said aloud), "what was I thinking?" or "I can't do this" or "I want to run away from home".

I love my daughters more than I love anyone or anything else. I absolutely adore them. I'm grateful to have these precious children and I'm grateful that I've been granted my lifelong wish of becoming a mother. I wouldn't trade these babies for the world and cannot imagine my life without them.

Sometimes, though, that love doesn't seem like it's going to be enough to give me the strength or patience or energy I need to get through the day. Sometimes I want to throw my hands up in the air and say, "I give up!" Sometimes I feel like I'm not nearly up to par when it comes to parenting twin babies.

I've been especially struggling with BabyB lately. She doesn't like to sleep. She rarely naps during the day. When she does nap, she has tiny snoozes that last about 15 minutes. She USED TO sleep through the night, but bedtime has been a huge struggle for quite some time and she's been waking at about 1:30am the past few nights. She fights off going to sleep. She is clearly tired, but she cries and gets upset when I try to put her to bed. I've tried different techniques and none have worked. I used to be able to put her to bed while still awake shortly after her last feeding and she would drift off to sleep peacefully. In the last month or so, that hasn't been possible. Her bedtime routine used to take about 30 minutes; now it takes well over an hour (sometimes closer to two). And when she wakes in the middle of the night, I have a difficult time getting her back to sleep. She falls asleep quite easily in my arms and will stay asleep while I hold her, but wakes up and cries when I put her down.

I cannot keep her in my arms all night - although I have considered it. I need sleep too. And I need to take care of her sister as well. Giving BabyB so much of my attention makes me feel like I'm being a bad mother to BabyF. I should be giving her my attention too - even if she isn't asking for it. I should be spending more time with her; playing with her and stimulating her development. BabyB's demands for attention make that impossible. So I feel like a horrible mother. I've even said aloud, "I could have ten babies if they were all like BabyF". Isn't that horrible?! I don't favour one baby over the other, but it sounds like I do.

I'm just drained - physically and emotionally. And this teething phase is making things more difficult than I imagined.

she's gone

Taly, our golden retriever, had to be put down yesterday.

She was four months shy of 13 years old. Things have been going downhill for her for the last eight months or so, but had gotten especially bad in the last two months.

She was a very affectionate dog. She loved people so much more than she loved fellow dogs. When we walked her and encountered other dogs being walked, the other dog would always come to her but she would always go to that dog's owner instead. And when we would pet the other dog, she would quickly come to us and nudge us with her snout to try to get between us and the other dog... and would make a strange sound like she was talking - it wasn't a bark nor a growl and I have no idea how to describe it, but she was talking. She made that same "talking" sound when her favourite people came over for a visit... and she had a LOT of favourite people.

Really, she was a very special dog... and also one of the stinkiest dogs I've ever known.

We will miss her and always remember her... and her absence from our lives will be felt for a long time to come.

Christ's ears

No, really... that's what they're called. Les oreilles de crisse. Pork rind, salt, and monosodium glutamate (if you buy it packaged)... which is exactly what J brought back with him after his short trip to the grocery store the other day.

Quite honestly I've never tried them. Pork rind doesn't sound especially appetizing to me. He, on the other hand, thinks they are a delicious, salty, crispy treat. Umm, no thanks - I'll pass.

However, I have found my newest little food addiction of the week (maybe of the month). Whole grain snacking goodness. He can have his Christ's ears. I'll stick with my crackers.

Month Five - March 21, 2009

Dear BabyF and BabyB,

This past month has been so much fun. We're all really getting the hang of being alone together throughout the days and you've both been so cooperative. You both eat really well and sleep well too. Actually, BabyF sleeps very well through the days with long naps and BabyB likes to stay awake and hang out with mommy all day. You both USUALLY sleep through the nights (often lasting 12 hours!). I am a very very lucky mommy!

BabyF, you've been sucking on your hands more and more and I don't know if it's because I'm not feeding you enough or if it's because you just like sucking on your chubby little fingers. You're growing very well, so I'm guessing you aren't undernourished. You're also beginning to show a more independent side. You don't seem to want to be held all that often. You're perfectly content playing on your little gym, doing tummy time with your sister on my bed, or even just watching your Baby Einstein dvd. Sometimes I wish you were more clingy and affectionate (doesn't really make much of a difference because I hug and kiss you a thousand times a day anyway), but I think I'll be grateful for your independence when you're a little older.

BabyB, you have become much more clingy. Whenever I pick you up, you mold your body to mine and this makes me want to hold you all the time. I love your love-doveyness because I'm a big mush ball of affection just like you. Sometimes you take it a little too far, though... like the time we left you with your Nonna for a few hours and you fussed almost the entire time until your momma came back and held you - then you were suddenly happy as can be. I'm wondering if I should leave you with Nonna more often so you can get used to being in the care of others. I'm only considering this because I suspect I'll have to go back to work soon and then you'll HAVE to be in the care of another and my guilt would be a hundred times worse if I knew you were unhappy.

You both now babble a lot and even giggle from time to time. I haven't quite figured out a sure-fire way of making you giggle. It's been hit and miss so far, but I'm working on it. And when I do finally figure it out, well then that's all we're going to do... because, truly, your giggles are the most beautiful sounds I have ever heard.

Now that the warm-ish weather is upon us, we've been spending more time outdoors. I have finally gained the confidence I need to pack you both up by myself and take you out - whether it be to drive you to Nonna's or to take you for a walk in your enormous double stroller. Things will only get better as the weather gets nicer. I can hardly wait for the weather to be mild and clear enough for us to take walks together every single day. Soon you'll be hanging out with your friend Annalisa - my dear friend M (and his wife N)'s daughter, who was born about six weeks before you were. Oh what fun we'll have going to the park together and shopping and just enjoying our days. It'll be just the girls - all five of us - and I'm confident that we'll all have a wonderful time together.

For now, we continue to take things one step at a time and I will continue to cherish every moment we all have together.

With all the love in the world,
Mamma

I'm a what??

I hadn't seen my friend since before I became pregnant with the twins. Our conversation went something like this...



male friend: You look different.

me: Yeah, it's called sleep deprivation.

male friend: No, silly. You look different.

me: Different how?

male friend: I don't know. I can't put my finger on it.

me: Try.

male friend: You look like a mother.

me: (burst out in laughter) Is is the saggy boobs? The tired eyes? The ever-increasing grey in my hair?

male friend: Oh shut up! You look like a woman now.

me: Honey, I've always been a woman. What on earth are you talking about?

male friend: You look like a woman... not a girl anymore.

me: (look at him like he's on some cheap recreational drug)

male friend: You're a MILF, ok! It's a compliment - trust me on this.

Month Four – February, 21, 2009

* edited to add pictures *

Dear BabyF and BabyB,

Today marks your fourth month. I keep thinking that in less than eight months I’ll be returning to work. I can’t imagine leaving you both for 8+ hours per day. Every day that I’m with you is a new day of discovery and I don’t want to miss a single moment.

Sometimes I feel guilty for not giving either one of you enough attention because the other needs me and also because I need time to myself to recharge my batteries from time to time. I feel like I’m forced to neglect you because there are two of you. Yet I wouldn’t trade either one of you for the world. And I’m hoping you’ll eventually get to the stage where you enjoy each other’s company and entertain one another while I’m busy doing other things.

I’ve started placing you facing each other in your little bouncy seats. Or sometimes I’ll have one of you sitting in a booster seat while I feed the other. You seem to enjoy staring at each other, but you both still seem to prefer watching me. Maybe that’s because I perform for you – sing little songs, babble away about nonsense, read books to you, encourage you to play with your toys, smother you with kisses, etc, etc. The songs I seem to sing most to you these days are “Amazing Grace” when I want you to calm down and go to sleep and “Do-Re-Mi” (from The Sound of Music).

You’ve both started sucking on your hands like they’re some sort of tasty treat. Even after you’ve had a full bottle of milk, you both still like to suck on your chubby little fists. It’s quite adorable, but also messy because you’re also both drooling all the time. It makes me wonder if this is the start of the dreaded teething phase.

A couple of major events have happened during this month. First of all, your father went back to work on February 2. That means the three of us were left alone. I won’t lie, it’s been challenging handling the two of you on my own. I continue to do my best, but there have been a couple of moments when the three of us were crying together. Somehow, though, we’ve always managed to figure things out and restore peace and tranquility.

The other major event involves only BabyB. Just a few days ago we met with the nephrologist to review all results of the various tests done in the last four months. BabyB, you only have one functional kidney. Now I know that may sound alarming, but the truth is that many people function perfectly fine with just one kidney for their entire lives… some go through life not even realizing they were missing a kidney. Your left kidney has multiple cysts in it and is not functioning at all. The good news is that your right kidney is in perfect shape and functioning well enough to compensate for the non-functional one. We were given more detail, but that sums it up pretty well. We just have to monitor the kidneys regularly. So, you see, there’s really nothing to worry about.

I’m looking forward to your first winter being left behind you. You both HATE being bundled up in your winter gear and you both scream and cry every single time we have to take you out. The warmer weather will require less layers and less complications and will allow us to spend more time outdoors – which will be better for you and for me. So let’s just hang in there for a little while longer and we’ll be having so much more fun once the mild weather hits.


Love,
Mamma

maybe tomorrow

Just about every day, for the past week, I have gotten up in the morning and said "I'm going to try to take them out for a walk in their stroller today."

Yesterday would have been an exceptionally good day for that - weatherwise. The sun was shining and it was relatively mild out. But their schedules were off. While BabyB was awake and cranky or feeding, BabyF was sleeping. While BabyF was awake and feeding, BabyB was cranky and needing comfort (sensing a trend with BabyB yet?). So it never seemed to be a good time and it never happened.

I opened the door a short while ago to let the dog out and felt the bitter cold in the outdoor air. I decided its much too cold to take them out today. The sky is grey and the air is heavy - we're supposed to have some freezing rain. That would make for some far from ideal conditions to be taking my little babies out. So it looks like we'll be staying in yet again.

I know I feel intimidated by the whole ordeal of getting them ready to get them out. In my mind it seems so complicated, but maybe I'm just making it more complicated than it really is.

I need to exit the house from the garage door through the basement. This is because exiting through the main entrance would involve going down a flight of stairs - not possible with a huge double-stroller and two little babies. I mean, how would I safely get the stroller down by myself with the girls in it? If I bring the stroller down empty (still very heavy and possibly impossible to do by myself), then how do I get the girls in there safely? I can't put one in, leave her out by herself while I get the other one. And I certainly can't carry them both safely down the steps at the same time.

So I absolutely MUST exit with them through the garage in the basement. This means I have to go through the following steps:

1. Make sure the girls are somewhere safe upstairs (preferably cribs or bassinette)

2. Bring their winter gear (and mine), their blankets, and their diaper bag with all necessities (depending on how far we'll go) downstairs.

3. Get the stroller ready for the girls.

4. Bring one child downstairs, place her somewhere secure.

5. Bring the other child down.

6. Dress both girls quickly. (Quickly because they HATE being dressed in their winter clothes and always end up screaming and crying.)

7. Secure both girls in the stroller quickly. (Quickly for the same reason as above.)

8. Cover them up, get myself dressed, grab everything I need (keys, garage opener, pacifiers, diaper bag with potential necessities) and EXIT!



Of course all this needs to be done after they've both been fed and changed and aren't feeling too cranky. Ha! Like that ever happens!

I'm going to keep this list handy so that just maybe it won't seem like such a daunting task the next time (hopefully soon) I decide I should try taking them out by myself. I can do this... really, I can. No, really!

swinging

No, no... not THAT kind of swinging.

Whenever I've mentioned BabyB's mid-day fussy period every parent has asked me if I put her in a swing. They are shocked when I inform them I don't have a swing for them. They have all sworn that it is a MUST. When J went back to work, I quickly became exhausted and frustrated with only being able to hold one baby at a time. So on J's first day off, we headed out to do some shopping.

We discovered that swings don't come cheap. The ones we saw (at four different stores) ranged from $99 to $179. That's a little steep for something that will only hold them for a few more short months. So my next step was checking out craigslist. And I SCORED! I found one in perfectly good condition listed at $25 and I managed to get it for $20. Who knew I could negotiate!?

The best part is not the price, the best part is that it DOES calm BabyB (most of the time). She absolutely LOVES that thing and that means I love it too! At this point anything that helps is a God-send!

So if you're a new mommy, get yourself a swing - STAT!

just the three of us

Today is J's first day back at work. I'm alone with the babies. They've both already gone through two feedings and BabyB has already had one poop explosion.

It's mild out - right around freezing - and I'm actually considering taking them out for a walk in their stroller. I've never taken them out by myself. I wonder if I'll chicken out.

Wish me luck!

Month Three – January 21, 2009

Dear BabyF and BabyB,


Time is certainly flying by. You’re now three months old and growing so quickly. BabyF, you’ve already more than doubled your birth weight and BabyB, you’re pretty close to doubling it.

You both had your first vaccines this month and handled it surprisingly well. Thankfully neither of you cried all that much and neither of you had any nasty side effects after the shots. I just hope all of your future vaccines go as smoothly.

You’re both doing a better job at holding up your bobbly heads and are getting stronger and stronger every day. You even smile more and make more of those cooing sounds. Even when you wake grumpy, your moods quickly change when you see me suddenly appear before you. I am always greeted with bright smiles from both of you and your smiles never cease to warm my heart. You are both my greatest source of joy.

BabyF, you’ve recently discovered your chubby little hand and seem to enjoy chewing and sucking on it almost all the time. You’re often drooling and this means your little hand is also covered with drool. BabyB, you don’t do this quite as often. Perhaps you don’t think your hand is as tasty as BabyF seems to think hers is.

BabyF, you sometimes have sudden fits of very loud screaming. I sometimes ask you who pinched your bottom when this happens because it really sounds like someone or something suddenly caused you harm. Luckily, we’re still able to calm you relatively quickly when this happens. BabyB, on the other hand, still winds up to her crying very slowly.

I love both of your names - after all, I chose them. However, over the past three brief months I’ve come to call you all sorts of affectionate names. Some are cute and some you may think not so cute. Here are a few:

Baby Love
Bamboletta (means little doll in Italian)
Coconut Head (for Felicia’s perfectly round head)
Cantaloupe Head (same reason as above)
Poopy Butt (for obvious reasons)
Bridgie
BridgieButt
BridgiePie
Bridgettina
Felicetta
Ladybug (BabyF, for some reason you remind me of a ladybug)
Amore (means love in Italian)
Tesoro (means treasure in Italian)
Cuore di Mamma (means mother’s heart in Italian)
Little Girl

I’m sure there are others and there will be others in the future, but I can’t seem to think of them right now. They are all, and will always be, terms of endearment.


Love,
Mamma

P.S. Thank you for sleeping for longer periods through most nights. I am eternally grateful!

what they don't tell you

Here are a few things women could expect to experience after delivering a child (or children) via c-section... and after breastfeeding for even just a short period of time.


Your tits will sag and look deflated.

Your abdomen will remain numb.

The skin over your midsection, which had stretched so far to accomodate 16lbs of baby (plus everything they needed in there while in residence), will be saggy.

Your back will ache at the spinal block injection site - an ache sometimes so intense that you feel like you may fall if you don't sit down.

Your hair will turn grey.

A thin dark line (linea negra) will appear from about the middle of your midsection down to your public mound.

You will find yourself searching for words and feel like a total idiot with all of the memory blanks.



I'm sure there are others I'm not remembering at the moment. I have no idea if or when any of these things will change or go back to normal... hopefully very soon. I have been feeling very ugly lately and I would love for a few things to go back to normal.

they really DO love me!

We put them in separate cribs last night for the first time and for the very first time they BOTH slept through the entire night!

BabyF was asleep by about 8:30pm and woke at 6:00am.

BabyB was asleep by about 9:30pm and woke at 7:30am.

I, being the crazy overprotective mother that I am, woke at 3:00am to listen for them... then again at 4:00am... and then again at 5:30am. I began to worry about BabyF because she has never gone more than six hours between feedings. So I got up and went to check on them. Once I saw them both wiggle and coo I felt relieved and went back to bed.

Now, of course, I've jinxed it by posting about it, but I'm REALLY hoping this is the start of a new and permanent sleeping schedule. Keep your fingers crossed for me!